Letting go of the past

Since going ahead with my Lymph node transfer/transplant surgery my mind has often travelled backwards, I realise that this is unhelpful, that I cannot change the fact I had Uterine Cancer. I cannot change the fact the surgery took away 22 lymph nodes and the radiation destroyed more of the Lymphatic vessels… I cannot change the fact I was given so little information on this side effect of treatment. The Lymphoedema started almost as soon as I finished treatment, I can remember it very clearly. I had flown with a friend to Adelaide to stay at a health retreat on Kangaroo Island to detox and recuperate from my treatment. I flew with no compression stockings on and at the retreat part of our daily routine was a sauna. (Two big no no’s when you have an at risk limb!!) A few days into the retreat I noticed a raised area at the top of each thigh which gradually spread down my leg causing swelling. This was Lympheodema!!! The story continued for 11 years till I heard about a new surgery called Lymph Node transfer, so this is where I am today.

I saw this quote today and it made me think about how important it is to let go of the past, the why’s and the what if’s, to be grateful that I have never had a reoccurrence of the cancer, that I am healthy in every other way.  Today I reclaim my peace….  And I hope that others will join me in this ….


15 thoughts on “Letting go of the past

  1. Great perspective!! There are so many “what-ifs”. But at least others can learn from us… there is so much that doctors don’t tell you, that they should, so you can take precautionary measures. Our blogs help us educate others where doctors are failing us. So I try to also look at is as “it happened for a reason” and hopefully some good can come from it. Have a great weekend! ((hugs!))

  2. Thanks for your post of letting go of the past. As a person who suffers from Lymphedema, it is always a constant and daily reminder of the fact you went through what caused it – in my case breast cancer. I really try to let go of that and concentrate on the now. But there are days….yesterday my Lymphedema Specialist told me she has a patient that got Lymphedema after a massage. No one warned her that can be dangerous. To be honest, I did not know that either! Thanks so much for your Blog and the information you bring! Denise

  3. What scares me is that I am a primary Lymphedema victim. What if I get breast or uterine cancer? I have no lymph nodes to save me

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  4. Thank you for sharing! I really try hard to stay present in every moment. I don’t want to miss out on my life by dwelling on the past. I’m not my disease, I’m much, much more than that! Have a joy filled day everyone!

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