I have not blogged for a few days, mostly because I felt that I was just standing still, not moving back or forwards but quietly healing and resting. Today however was a giant step forward, with a trip to see the doctor and at last a chance to move to the next stage. I did not sleep well last night and got up at 5am very restless and anxious about my impending doctors visit. My knee was also sore as the stitches were really starting to tighten and pull, making it very difficult and painful to bend, at 5am this morning I had had enough, I needed to see progress.
The doctor was pleased to see me, though I think he was not impressed with my straight leg walking as I had been unable to bend it much. However as soon as he removed the stitches it felt so much better and already movement was easier, it felt good to get rid of the tightness. The incision in my neck he thought was healing well, with no problems. The doctor also arranged physiotherapy for me and would see me again in three weeks, but I can contact him sooner if any problems arise.
Due to the surgery I have not been able to wear my normal compression stocking for the last three weeks but the doctor feels that by the end of week four I could start to wear these again. Eventually one hopes to no longer need compression garments but that could be months or a year down the track. At the moment it is important to get the swelling down in the leg, caused by a mix of surgery, cellulitis and Lymphoedema. I have an appointment with the physiotherapist who specialises in Lymphoedema, I am to see her next Thursday and take my compression stockings, knee highs and bandages so we can work out how best to treat this for now. My knee is bigger at the moment than usual, so may have to be remeasured for my compression stockings or bandage for a while. I will also be able to have a lymphatic massage now the infection has cleared, just six more days of antibiotics and all should be well.
There are times when I wish I had a crystal ball and could see into the future, it is so difficult not to have a sense of panic about the outcome. When you have been through cancer there are many times when you have to wait for results, I used to think a couple of days was too long, now I have to wait six months for an MRI and Lymphoscintigraph to see the results. In the meantime I have to make the best of it and hope to see some gradual improvement. I would like to get back into a pool, when it has healed more, as that has always helped me in the past. The waters natural compression as you are walking is like Manual Lymph Drainage, especially as the pool I go to has water up to the armpits the whole length. I would love to be able to go for a really long walk but that is a couple of months away I think!
I am now allowed to walk a little more, drive the car short distances but elevate leg when sitting. I think I will be able to return to work in a couple of weeks and as I only work part-time for myself I should be able to manage this!! I think some normality in my life would be good. I just need to take one step at a time till I reach my goal!! Oh, but the goal at the moment does look a long way away!!!